Difficulty getting pregnant and difficulty losing weight will make otherwise healthy, sane people beg their doctor to find something, anything wrong with them to explain why their bodies won't cooperate.
I mean, really, how many times in my life long struggle with weight/weight loss did I have countless blood tests to check thyroid levels, hormone levels, etc in a desperate attempt to prove that something IS legitimately physiologically wrong me. With every test, I hoped and prayed that it would finally reveal that the failure was deep in the core of my body AND not deep in the core of my pathetic willpower or inability to change. Of course, the tests always came back perfectly normal --- and I went back to hating myself for not being able to do something so simple that other people do all the time.
Now, that I finally have the upper hand in my struggle to lose weight, I catch myself feeling the same way about my current inability achieve/maintain pregnancy. Unfortunately, most OB/GYNs will not explore or test fertility until after at least 1 year of active trying. So here I am in limbo not knowing if I have a legitimate physical problem or just incapable of properly aligning with the moon and stars. I don't know which is worse having to sit around for a year while something may be causing me to not get pregnant or getting tested now only to find out (like with my weight loss struggles) that I am perfectly fine and the only reason I can't seem to get pregnant is due to some shitty luck or karmic joke.
Also, the fact that I ultimately had to get a Lapband (a significant medical intervention) before I was able to have any measurable weight loss success (despite being otherwise "healthy") is fostering irrational fertility fears. Even though everything I currently know of my reproductive health points to me having a perfectly healthy bajingo (aka lady business) I am terrified that I will, once again, be forced to utilize extreme medical intervention to make my body ACTUALLY do something that it should be perfectly capable of doing.