Prolly gonna be MIA for a bit. My grandfather passed on Sunday night and between the emotional exhaustion of knowing what's to come with the funeral along with the extreme physical exhaustion I have with this cold I am trying to shake I can barely put together a coherent thought.
Thanks to JRD, Rachel, and Speck for tagging me in the fun tag fest going around. I am working on my responses but it may be another day or two. I really do love these kinds of posts. I love knowing what other people wanna know about me.
I am really dreading this week and not because of the funeral. Long story short, my grandmother is nutty as squirrel shit. Her crazy is a special piquant blend of delusional, paranoid, manipulative, and, come to find out, downright mean. She has been outright nasty to my mother and uncle while they have provided 24/7 care to my grandfather. My Mom is very wounded right now. I know she want to lay all details of my grandmother's terrible behaviour on me when I get to town. Not to mention multiple revelations about my grandfather learned over this time spent caring for him. I am not ready or interested in the airing of family dirty laundry that is to come.
10 years ago my paternal grandfather died and it ripped my Dad's side of the family apart, literally. The end result was half of my Dad's family not speaking to the other half and me left with something that bears no resemblance to the family I grew up with. I have only managed in past year or so to come to some kind of emotional conclusions about what happened with my Dad's family and how that impacts my role in our family.
I am much less close to my mother's family but nonetheless I would really prefer to not go through the same kind BS as they rip each other to shreds like my Dad's family did. I know I seem really pessimistic but there are so many more factors that that make me fairly certain it's gonna be nasty. Quite frankly, I really can't tolerate yet another dose of my family's dysfunction.
I have no idea what kind of mine field I will walking into on Wednesday.